I don’t get it.

“One day you just wake up and discover that you got old while you were sleeping.” – “This is where I leave you” – by Jonathan Tropper

My cousin Richard. Three years older than I. What a guy. When I was 15, he was my hero.

He had a license and a car.

Did fun things like drive that old 49 Ford from the passenger side so it would look like nobody was driving that thing and other such nonsense.

Fun loving guy. Free spirit. Always so full of life.

Now, at 78, that guy is just hanging on. Waiting to die.

He never married and lives alone with his thoughts, memories, and a few health issues. Nothing fatal. Just annoying.

Here’s the rub. He’s ready to die. Any day. Right now.

His attitude just infuriates me. How can he be so casual about death?

I don’t want to die. Not now. Maybe in 500 years.

I have my demons. My health issues. But dying is not an option.

I won’t acknowledge it.

How is it possible to be so insouciant about one’s mortality?

I don’t get it.

“I hated that kind of reflex, to gloss over the scabs of a person’s life. No one was perfect, except in tragic death” – The Thirst by Jo Nesbo

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12 Responses to I don’t get it.

  1. Everyone is different – not an original thought. My Dad told me several years before he died that sometimes life gets tedious. He’d been a very active, very strong, very healthy man all his life. I think about his comment often, and sometimes I understand it, but I’m going to fight against it as long as God allows me to do so. Prayers of peace and understanding for you and your friend.


  2. Doc' & CJ says:

    Life never ends my friend, it just changes form. What comes next is the greatest discovery of all.

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    • Texas Heat says:

      As always Doc, I appreciate and value your comments. I’m wondering. Is your comment a rationalization for death?

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      • Doc' & CJ says:

        Not a rationalization, more an affirmation. I’m pretty convinced that life is not meaningless, we are in fact here for a reason, even if we don’t discover that reason for ourselves individually. Physical death is part of the process of living, and that’s the point. It is a process. It continues.

        We exist simultaneously, in 2 separate realms. Body and soul. The body dies, but the soul is eternal. Our time here is very brief, take comfort in knowing that life on earth is a gift, an amazing stage that we pass through on our journey through eternity. And we won’t be passing this way again.

        Nihilism is a symptom, not an answer.


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  3. Mark Krusen says:

    Who me die? Don’t want to. But if I have to. I want it to be a life well lived. God has been very good to me.


  4. Mark says:

    I don’t know if I’m ready to go, but I am at peace if the big guy calls me home. I have lived the life that few experience. If my time comes, so be it.


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