What the hell is going on?

When I stand before God at the end of my life, I would hope that I would not have a single bit of talent left, and could say, ‘I used everything you gave me’.” – Erma Bombeck

Funny thing life. Just when you think you have figured it out, it slaps you in the face.

A relationship is so complex. Man-woman. Husband-wife. Friend-foe. Parent-child.

Some seem to be blessed with very strong relationships. Ones that cannot be destroyed. They withstand anything life throws at them. So it seems.

Beware. This I know for sure. Any of our relationships is at the mercy of just one angry word spoken in haste, one ill-timed act or gesture away from painful termination.

Most of this we can control if we are cognizant, determined and desirous.

The things we cannot control or even understand continue to haunt me. As Vince Lombardi once said, “What the hell is going on out there?”

There is someone in my life who feels I did them wrong. That I did not do them right. That I was not all that I could be or should have been. And I am clueless. I have absolutely no idea why this feeling exists. Furthermore, I know that this individual is wrong. The perception is absolutely incorrect.

This individual is very immature and deals with life in a manner I simply do not understand.

This matter has never been discussed with me. I only know of it because I am accused behind my back and it has all slowly trickled back to me. The backstabbing is very painful.

I have almost reached the point of no return. The time may be near. I may have to sever the ties that bind. The thought of it pains me immensely.

Once in awhile, life sucks.

“Don’t drink and park – accidents cause people.” – Unknown

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6 Responses to What the hell is going on?

  1. Stay strong. Your a special person. 🙂


  2. Vickie says:

    Ah, you’ve met my step-children! No matter what they try to derail the relationship I have with their Father…under the guise of “I’m just giving my opinion”…which translates to me as an insult. I’ve continued to encourage my husband to go visit his kids…sans me. This pains him but I told him I’ve reached the stage in life where all I want is peace. I don’t take this type of behavior from my kids so I certainly won’t take it from his. It’s a shame because other than that we have a great marriage. Fortunately, he understands where I’m coming from. I’m at the age where the “delete” button works not only on my computer but in my life. Life’s too short.


    • Texas Heat says:

      Wow. You are kind of between a rock and a hard place. Love the delete button analogy.
      Well, I’m almost there. My finger lingers over the delete button. I don’t want to cut the tie but I may have to just to keep my sanity. Seems you are in the same place. Damn it hurts though. I’ve been whittling down my list of friends and family I want in my life and it does work. I’m happier without those people. Take care my friend.


  3. blueheron98 says:

    Your post hit home my friend. I have had to sever ties with two people this year. Each one pains me, but I will never be what they think I should be for them. And it is too much effort to try any longer.



    • Texas Heat says:

      You nailed it Vicky. Too much effort. You reach a point of diminishing returns and it’s just not worth it. There is something in each of us that defines the limits of our patience or even our ability to care. Sometimes it is better to break the ties that bind.


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